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Eight months of internship program in SLB, Labuan has ended finally…Feel sad to leave the whole bunch of crazy + fun people here…All of them including my manager said that i will miss Labuan when I’m back home..shit..I keep on telling myself that I won’t but well..i haven’t left the place I already miss the place..heart just feel heavy..but what to do, hv to go back study…I enjoy the training here and I’m glad I was transferred here last minute to here from Kemaman…hehe..if not, my life won’t be that colorful =P

Here is just full of surprises, expect the unexpected…things might just happen spontaneously…Gained alot professionally and personally…all the reports are done, handover is done…everything has completed…except I haven’t finished packing…damn..I hate packing…can’t I just have magic hand, cast a spell so that all my things will squeeze into the luggage by themselves…I just afraid I don’t have enough bags to store my stuff…aikss…

What surprised me lately was when my Canadian manager gave a touching speech during our dinner in Sheraton…Felt being appreciated and all the hard work was worth it and also all the best wishes from the techs and engineers..thanks..I may not qualified enough to run a job or take survey, but I believe I’ve tried my best in assisting the team in their operations and also contribute something to the company…it’s not a huge project which gv a great impact but at least it will be slightly helpful…just want to leave some of foot prints in the base..hehe..no regrets…I will carry the sweet and good memories with me…don’t worry I will remember all the members in D&M..hopefully still remember the names coz I’m very bad in name inputs..but definitely will remember their faces..hehe..

Finally my heartfelt appreciation to the team who guide me throughout the internship, thanks for the help, support and knowledge sharing…Happy to get to know you all…thanks to Alfie & wife for the wonderful choc cakes/brownies/muffins for me…I still remember the first muffin I had from them, it was on my lappie when back from lunch…thought who la gv me (secret admirer?..in my dream..keke..)it was from him…since then, I have choc delicacies supply almost everyday..that’s why I put on weight..aikss..then to my mentor, Johnson who always with the wassup dude + good things no cheap, cheap things no good phrases…I wont bring the tagalog ‘bahasa’ back from him, the aerobic suit model and the ‘hamsap’ monkey..keke..

It’s time to rig down the company’s lappie..final usage by blogging..hehe..cheers..

Recently I realized something…when you are in trouble and really need help, who will you turn to?family, frens, boyfriend, girlfriend? what if you are far away from your family and close friends? what if you don’t have someone special by your side that time? of course the ones around you that you know…although you barely know them for months…you call and get them but no one picks up the phone…how do you feel? helpless, hopeless, lonely, despair or frustrated?

Well, imagine..you were far away from your beloved family and close friends..one night, you were very sick till your body barely moved..tried to hold on till left no choice..the body asked the brain to get help..since the useful tool which was always with you would be the mighty human invention ever, the handphone…dial any numbers that came to your mind..the one you believe who can possible give you a hand..a ride to search the genius doctors..first number, no one picked up the phone…next number, just the ringtone…next again, same ringtone…till you are out of numbers…if you, what were you going to do??feeling helpless…bared with it and eventually you didn’t realize, you have already slept through the night without anyone knowing that you were in pain,crying for help, and what if your body seriously dying..you won’t know..they won’t know…died in the sleep?perfect…a peaceful end…

The moral of the story is prepare plan B…yes, we have friends around us…but will they be there when you need them the most? bestfriends/ soulmates won’t be around us all the time…you might say this only happens to those people who have bad attitude and unlikeable…hmm…hard to say…I just got my wake up call (you guys might think I’m one of those people who hated by others, up to you all how you guys want to judge me. that’s not my point anywhere)…I started to think about two words…independent and healthy…those two words are preventions for such situation to happen…we need to take good care of ourselves when our loved ones are not around us…because they won’t be there when we need them to look after us when we are sick…independent, never be dependable on others too much..when shit does happen, it might be too late..sound very exaggerating isn’t it…hehe…who knows???your friends who you call when you need help might unable to pick up the phone…they might be busy/ sleeping/ deaf/ their hp in silent mode…or they just don’t want to pick up your call…so…

finally, when there are miss calls from our friends, just have courtesy to call them back..they might be in trouble and need our help..if it’s just a joke or prank call,then you can give them a ‘good’ lecture..From the wake up call too, I manage to do reality check =)

Recently I’m reading a book by Kim Kiyosaki on investing for woman..It sort of like a motivation book for women in doing investment..it is an interesting book, a really must read book I would say..Thanks to a friend of mine for lending me the book..I would like to capture some of the phrases from the book to share with you all who are interested..

"Remember; Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but she did it backwards and in high heels." - Faith Whittlesey

"Women want men, careers, money, children, friends, luxury, comfort, independence, freedom, respect, love, and three dollar pantyhose that won’t run." - Phyllis Diller

"You can have it all. You just can’t have it all at one time." - Oprah Winfrey

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime." - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

"I do not wish (women) to have power over men; but over themselves." - Mary Wollstonecraft

"I think the key is for women not to set any limits." - Martina Navratilova

"If I had my life to live again, I’d make the same mistakes, only sooner." - Tallulah Bankhead

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Women will always be dependent until she holds a purse of her own." - Elizabeth Cady Stanton

"A good goal is like a strenuous exercise - it makes you stretch." - Mary Kay Ash

"Power is the ability not to have to please." - Elizabeth Janeway

"We women don’t care too much about getting our pictures on money as long as we can get our hands on it." - Ivy Baker Priest.

"Thoughts are energy,and you can make your world or break your world by your thinking." - Susan Taylor

"Just trying to do something - just being there,showing up - is how we get braver. Self-esteem is about doing." - Joy Browne

"You can learn new things at any time in your life if you’re willing to be a beginner.If you actually learn to like being a beginner, the whole world opens up to you." - Barbara Sher

"I am extraordinary patient, provided I get my own way in the end." - Margaret Thatcher

"If you educate a man you educate a person; if you educate a woman you educate a family." - Ruby Manikan

"Independence I have long considered the grand blessing of life, the basis of every virtue." - Mary Wollstonecraft

"Women are like tea bag; put them in hot water and they get stronger." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"A ship in port is safe, but that’s not what ships are built for." - Grace Hopper

"From birth to age 18, a girl needs good parents. From 18 to 35, she needs good looks. From 35 to 55, she needs good personality. And from 55 on, she needs good cash." - Sophie Tucker

Shits always happen..no matter when and no matter where..We don’t always get what we want and what we hope for..not good job, not money, not luxuries..jst simple and happy life..but we always want more..that’s human nature..ain’t enough for us, who always in hunger..what’s the main purpose of our lives??? We always wonder are we ain’t good enough? If not, why shits happen when we have hope..Fed up, give up..all we can say..but deep inside, the little flame of hope still burning without knowing it..hope someday..the time will come and show us the truth, prove the suffer from the past is worth it..

Because of this little hope, we need to stand still..believe in the faith..hold it tight to our arms and don’t lose ourselves..always remember who we are and where we came from..stay strong and focus so that we won’t do things that we will regret one day..We can make it through..This is only the end of the beginning and the beginning of the end..Still long way to go…

To a friend who shares the same feelings, pain, tears tonight..Thanks for the things that you wrote..yes..we can make it through..Thanks for everything..Cheers..

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in the world!!!And especially to my mom..thanx for eveything u hv done for me..bringing me to this world..protecting my innocent teen years from the real cruel world..no wonder you always want to keep me at home and stay with you always..You were afraid that I would get hurt and got deceived by others..and knowing the fact the world out there is not as wonderful and pretty as it seems in the fairy tales…thanx for keeping my sweet 17 years..I really miss those years when I used to be very naive and simple minded..Thanx for standing by me when I need help the most..thanx for catching me when I fall hard and almost hit to the hell..thanx for giving me love and care when I feel lonely..thanx for cooking my fav dishes when im back home..(miss ur cooking alot and grandpa’s one too)..thanx for your shoulder and hug when I cry..thanx for being my bestfriend..I LOVE YOU LOTS!!!

Well, I jst woke up from my 9 hrs sleep..ya ya..im not a pig k..i jst lack of sleep last week and it’s time for me to replace them on the weekend..hehe..The first thing I did of course was not blogging..It was calling my mom..I could not get her on her phone..huhu..therefore, I called my ‘little’ beloved brother..He told me mom not at home and went yoga with her friends..walah..my mom pretty bz nowadays..with her friends..baking, exercising, facial, gardening, having pets called the fish, shopping n etc..I still remember her response when my bro and I leaving the house for study..she was very sad..and having difficulties to let it go..to her, we are always her babies no matter how old are we..thats what she told me..It was kinda worried me to see her that way..and I told her.."It’s time to let us go and do something that you like mom..It’s your time to enjoy your life after all these years that you have sacrificed to take care of us.."And finally nw..she really enjoys her time..good for her..hehe..

My mom always asked me whether I like the course that I study now and the training that I pick now..coz she afraid that im not happy with my life..I was given a choice to do something I loved four years ago..which was medicine..I was offered a med scholarship in AUS by the government..Actually med was my first choice..at that moment, no matter what happened I would still taking med although I had to go thru Form 6..It was very difficult for me when I had accepted the scholarship in chemical engineering which was my second choice..Two roads diverged in a yellow wood..in the end I picked the one with green grass..I cried two days because I had to let my dream of becoming doctor go..alot of people asked me why let it go..I would tell them because of family reason..Yes, it was..it was my mom didnt want me to go far away from her..she would worry about me all the time..and also I didnt want to burden my family coz I knew with government scholarship was not enough to support my study in AUS..But I never regret that I made the decision of letting my dream go..not a single moment..I’m happy and glad that I have chosen this path..my second choice..I would be a different person if I took med..haha..would become a nerd mayb..haha..nah..Thats why I always tell my mom that not to worry about me and dont feel bad as well because Im happy of how and what I am nw..I made the right choice, mom..Yes i did..

Oki doki..it’s time to call my mom..hopefully she has finished her yoga..cheers..

In the mood for blogging again..it was 1am..try to sleep but i cant coz i have slept 12 hours today..therefore, time to online and surf..

alot of things had happened to me for the past 2 years..there were good and bad memories..but i will always carry the good ones with me till my last breath..hopefully my brain have enough cells to store them..if not, i will take Omega-3 when the time comes..hehe..the bad ones, actually i’m happy and glad that they happened..i would take it as a lesson and a reminder..trigger me at the right time for not making any stupid mistakes during the present and future..

I had spent 10 days on a rig..the last 24 hours on the rig was the most exciting one..hehe..a sleepless 24 hours by rigging down..I would always remember the sun rise of that day..it was beautiful and all the pain and sweat that I’ve been through was worth it..while chopping off the tie wraps along the rig floor,Pak Raymond told me a touching statement which really melted my heart..he said,"If I’m your mother seeing you working this hard, my heart will feel painful"..I was surprised when he said that..It was jst out of a sudden..haha..mayb he need to take a five..Then I asked what if he was my father, he said,"I will be proud of you"..I really thanked him for saying that..really killed my tiredness and pain away immediately..at least there are people who notice my efforts..I was really happy and touched…you will feel great and satisfy when people appreciate your efforts and work..sometimes, all i need was a good tap on my shoulder, a firm handshake and told me excellent work, well done..these would really make my day..and a firm and warm hug from the love ones are my greatest motivation..

Once back to onshore, I spent one ‘interesting’ night in Miri..den another night in KK..when I was in KK, went to 2 clubs..Cocoon and Shenigan’s..I fell in love with one of the songs which a band played in Cocoon..It’s called Illegal by Shakira..featuring Santana..I fell for the lyrics immediately..and also fell for the way the female singer sang it..full of passion..and all the ladies in the club cheered for her when she sang that song…Here it goes..

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you’ve done it?
So deliberate, so determined

And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on

So tell me now, tell me now
Why you’re so far away
When I’m still so close

You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I’m wondering for days and hours
It’s here, it isn’t here where you belong

Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along

But you don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

The song does not resemble anything regarding my personal life..so,don’t think anything ‘doink’..jst it’s a nice song..feeling it’s nice if I can share with those who might fall for it too like me..Grab a phrase from a fren’s blog without his and her permission..Dont care..hehe.."Don’t touch a girl if you don’t mean to catch her when she falls"..sounds compatible to "Illegal" right?hehe..Cheers..

Day 6..on Ensco57 with my crazy cell manager Mak Agatha, Pak Raymond and Pak Gan (the lovable one by the men on the rig)..hehe

Being first time to the rig which I have been anticipating since I join Schlumberger was kinda thrilling..for those engineers who have been to the offshore often and in long period, they might think it sounds boring. However to me, it’s a good experience..At least I know whether this field will suit me or not in the future. Will I be able to endure it? Who knows? But so far so good..except something happened which only MAk and Pak know it..huhuhuhu..

It was my first time too on the helicopter..hehe..know what? I slept along the way..The check-in was at 6.15am..and the journey from Miri base to Ensco57 took 1 hour and 10min..The life jacket with EBS was very heavy.I could not wait to take it off once I was on the rig…

The best part was I finally fixed the VSAT (satellite dish to get network) for the crews..hehe..at least the things I ‘ve learnt from Atong were not wasted..hait hait..Here are some pics that  we took on the rig. .

Sun set view from Heli-Deck

Yes ppl…im not having my internship in kemaman..was posted 2 labuan a day before goin 2 kemaman…well…it’s kinda shocked at first..because i oredi mentally prepared and my luggage too 2 kemaman…suddenly on the 1st day of my training which was in kl for briefing and safety test..they swapped me wif a guy due to accomodation problems..hahah..but anyway..im happy for the sudden arrangement..well im not the happiest one because someone is happier and more excited than me who is nana, one of the anak jati labuan..haha..

today is my second day here in labuan..it’s fun..i arrived here yesterday by flight..hehe..the best thing was i was in the business class..of course sponsored by the host company..kekeke…straight away from the airport, they sent me to the base..met my canadian supervisor..he’s a very nice and friendly guy but very busy..i was kinda bit lost on tat day..a new trainee in a new working environment..met alot of ppl der..nice ppl..i was busy meeting up ppl and filled some forms..and of course a short briefing by the supervisor..luckily i was assigned to sit in a cubicle..

Today le..im happy because i got a mentor..a helpful and friendly chinese man from brunei..and got to meet all the technicians in my department during the morning meeting. ya..my department is D&M (drilling and measurement)..i was exposed to the equipments and technologies which are being used here..it’s very cool and fun..n very interesting…but one thing 4 sure here..safety is very important..we hv 2 wear a complete set of personal protection equipment all the time..n even my transportation which is a bus..oso need to wear seatbelt..haha..about accomodation..me and the other 2 trainees from utp staying in semi-D..but all of us not in the same house at far away from each other because we are assigned according to our different department..huhuh..im going to stay alone from nxt week onwards coz my housemate is goin to US soon…

well, working environment here is challenging..everybody is busy and in a fast pace..and they expect high performance from the employees..i hope that i survive through this 8 months training programme..and perform well..every month i will assigned to complete a project..huhuh..ya i notice it has been a while i didnt blog here..well..coz i blog in another website..anyway..i would like to thank my beloved friends who sent me msg and wish me luck..n also sorry for those who i didnt manage to inform them tat i was suddenly posted to labuan due to time constraint..

hahah..nw i suppose to have alot of things to do..but havent had the mood 2 proceed yet..luckily no meeting 2nite..tis coming wed..my grp goin 2 hav pre-edx presentation..1 2 noe wat is our topic??hehe..sotong catcher~~~interesting???haha..yup..u noe hw 2 catch sotong??ever think bout it? if u tink like normal fishing..u r wrong..it uses jigging method…1 2 noe more??can ask me 4 more details..well..jst fin printing d poster 2day..it’s very nice coz created by me..hohoho..i hav 1 fren even did d poster until she dreamt bout it..haha..so u can noe hw stressful v r here..haha..our prototaip is 98% finished…the other 2% v stil need to modify sth on it..

2 assignments due tis wk..another 2 nxt wk..4 tests coming soon..1 project due in 3 weeks time..blablabla..haha..stress??ya..but weird..i enjoy it tho..although i feel very tired doin all the work..but i feel satisfying..i do not mind with the workload tat i hv nw..mayb numb d..haha..jst keep on doin it..do do do..until fin..cant wait 2 fin d finals..cant wait 2 fin tis sem..cant wait 2 go back home..cant wait 2 start my internship…hehe..

haze is getting terrible nowadays..daytime is hot..fortunately at night is cold..too bad cudnt c the moon on the mooncake festival night..too cloudy..even on tat night itself i had meeting 2 fin up project fabrication..haha..fin meeting got back 2 d room..cut d mooncake n share with housemates..mana tahu..kena marah by them..COZ..i cut d mooncake wrongly..dey said shud cut in pie form..haha..u noe hw i cut it??it grid form..hoho..i oso duno y..i jst took d knife n cut it straight away..dey said "weird la..who teach you 2 cut like tat la..u r chinese anot??fail la..y u cut like tat???"..haha..answer=i duno..huhuhu

recently, my buddy and I had been talking alot about life..especially what is goin to happen next after v grad or in coming 5 yrs, wher wil v b and wat r v goin 2 do..u might think v r being funny or try 2 act old..but when it comes 2 a certain point..it will strike in ur mind.well..life is short..it’s very devastating when i got 2 noe tat my fren jst suddenly passed away due to accident..it reminds me hw fragile a life is..how important d time is, family n frens around u..
thanx 2 sherman..who owes surprises me wif his new phrases or philosophy when v talk..his phrases which i wil owes remember in my mind are:
1) Life is short.Keep it simple n sweet..(but hw 2 keep it sweet???do not want 2 hv tooth decay tho..hehe)

2) Take it easy…(sumtimes if u notice v take things 2 hard..like..break-ups, death, fight, assignments, friends,bitches, bastards n etc..in d end v r the 1 who ended up suffer (sad, depress, frust)..jst y not take it easy..tell urself jst dun bother about it..life goes on no matter how tough it is..u stil need to walk through the road whther it is green or yellow or muddy or anything..rmr d poem v learnt in secondary school bout 2 roads diverge in a yellow wood..haha..)

3) Everyone can be nice and have good memories with you but not everyone can be sincere to you and be there with you when u need the person the most..(this 1 i totally agree..when u r at d lowest point of ur life..u will realize who r the ppl who really care bout u..once u fall, dey will come to u n make sure u r all right.. hold u up n help u 2 get back up n walk again..n u even can notice those cold hearted ppl will jst ignore or dun bother about u..)

haha..these r d ‘falsampah’ v discuss..well..der r few more phrases which i cudnt rmr..when i rmr..i will upload..haha