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Recently I’m reading a book by Kim Kiyosaki on investing for woman..It sort of like a motivation book for women in doing investment..it is an interesting book, a really must read book I would say..Thanks to a friend of mine for lending me the book..I would like to capture some of the phrases from the book to share with you all who are interested..

"Remember; Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but she did it backwards and in high heels." - Faith Whittlesey

"Women want men, careers, money, children, friends, luxury, comfort, independence, freedom, respect, love, and three dollar pantyhose that won’t run." - Phyllis Diller

"You can have it all. You just can’t have it all at one time." - Oprah Winfrey

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime." - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

"I do not wish (women) to have power over men; but over themselves." - Mary Wollstonecraft

"I think the key is for women not to set any limits." - Martina Navratilova

"If I had my life to live again, I’d make the same mistakes, only sooner." - Tallulah Bankhead

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Women will always be dependent until she holds a purse of her own." - Elizabeth Cady Stanton

"A good goal is like a strenuous exercise - it makes you stretch." - Mary Kay Ash

"Power is the ability not to have to please." - Elizabeth Janeway

"We women don’t care too much about getting our pictures on money as long as we can get our hands on it." - Ivy Baker Priest.

"Thoughts are energy,and you can make your world or break your world by your thinking." - Susan Taylor

"Just trying to do something - just being there,showing up - is how we get braver. Self-esteem is about doing." - Joy Browne

"You can learn new things at any time in your life if you’re willing to be a beginner.If you actually learn to like being a beginner, the whole world opens up to you." - Barbara Sher

"I am extraordinary patient, provided I get my own way in the end." - Margaret Thatcher

"If you educate a man you educate a person; if you educate a woman you educate a family." - Ruby Manikan

"Independence I have long considered the grand blessing of life, the basis of every virtue." - Mary Wollstonecraft

"Women are like tea bag; put them in hot water and they get stronger." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"A ship in port is safe, but that’s not what ships are built for." - Grace Hopper

"From birth to age 18, a girl needs good parents. From 18 to 35, she needs good looks. From 35 to 55, she needs good personality. And from 55 on, she needs good cash." - Sophie Tucker

Shits always happen..no matter when and no matter where..We don’t always get what we want and what we hope for..not good job, not money, not luxuries..jst simple and happy life..but we always want more..that’s human nature..ain’t enough for us, who always in hunger..what’s the main purpose of our lives??? We always wonder are we ain’t good enough? If not, why shits happen when we have hope..Fed up, give up..all we can say..but deep inside, the little flame of hope still burning without knowing it..hope someday..the time will come and show us the truth, prove the suffer from the past is worth it..

Because of this little hope, we need to stand still..believe in the faith..hold it tight to our arms and don’t lose ourselves..always remember who we are and where we came from..stay strong and focus so that we won’t do things that we will regret one day..We can make it through..This is only the end of the beginning and the beginning of the end..Still long way to go…

To a friend who shares the same feelings, pain, tears tonight..Thanks for the things that you wrote..yes..we can make it through..Thanks for everything..Cheers..

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in the world!!!And especially to my mom..thanx for eveything u hv done for me..bringing me to this world..protecting my innocent teen years from the real cruel world..no wonder you always want to keep me at home and stay with you always..You were afraid that I would get hurt and got deceived by others..and knowing the fact the world out there is not as wonderful and pretty as it seems in the fairy tales…thanx for keeping my sweet 17 years..I really miss those years when I used to be very naive and simple minded..Thanx for standing by me when I need help the most..thanx for catching me when I fall hard and almost hit to the hell..thanx for giving me love and care when I feel lonely..thanx for cooking my fav dishes when im back home..(miss ur cooking alot and grandpa’s one too)..thanx for your shoulder and hug when I cry..thanx for being my bestfriend..I LOVE YOU LOTS!!!

Well, I jst woke up from my 9 hrs sleep..ya ya..im not a pig k..i jst lack of sleep last week and it’s time for me to replace them on the weekend..hehe..The first thing I did of course was not blogging..It was calling my mom..I could not get her on her phone..huhu..therefore, I called my ‘little’ beloved brother..He told me mom not at home and went yoga with her friends..walah..my mom pretty bz nowadays..with her friends..baking, exercising, facial, gardening, having pets called the fish, shopping n etc..I still remember her response when my bro and I leaving the house for study..she was very sad..and having difficulties to let it go..to her, we are always her babies no matter how old are we..thats what she told me..It was kinda worried me to see her that way..and I told her.."It’s time to let us go and do something that you like mom..It’s your time to enjoy your life after all these years that you have sacrificed to take care of us.."And finally nw..she really enjoys her time..good for her..hehe..

My mom always asked me whether I like the course that I study now and the training that I pick now..coz she afraid that im not happy with my life..I was given a choice to do something I loved four years ago..which was medicine..I was offered a med scholarship in AUS by the government..Actually med was my first choice..at that moment, no matter what happened I would still taking med although I had to go thru Form 6..It was very difficult for me when I had accepted the scholarship in chemical engineering which was my second choice..Two roads diverged in a yellow wood..in the end I picked the one with green grass..I cried two days because I had to let my dream of becoming doctor go..alot of people asked me why let it go..I would tell them because of family reason..Yes, it was..it was my mom didnt want me to go far away from her..she would worry about me all the time..and also I didnt want to burden my family coz I knew with government scholarship was not enough to support my study in AUS..But I never regret that I made the decision of letting my dream go..not a single moment..I’m happy and glad that I have chosen this path..my second choice..I would be a different person if I took med..haha..would become a nerd mayb..haha..nah..Thats why I always tell my mom that not to worry about me and dont feel bad as well because Im happy of how and what I am nw..I made the right choice, mom..Yes i did..

Oki doki..it’s time to call my mom..hopefully she has finished her yoga..cheers..

In the mood for blogging again..it was 1am..try to sleep but i cant coz i have slept 12 hours today..therefore, time to online and surf..

alot of things had happened to me for the past 2 years..there were good and bad memories..but i will always carry the good ones with me till my last breath..hopefully my brain have enough cells to store them..if not, i will take Omega-3 when the time comes..hehe..the bad ones, actually i’m happy and glad that they happened..i would take it as a lesson and a reminder..trigger me at the right time for not making any stupid mistakes during the present and future..

I had spent 10 days on a rig..the last 24 hours on the rig was the most exciting one..hehe..a sleepless 24 hours by rigging down..I would always remember the sun rise of that day..it was beautiful and all the pain and sweat that I’ve been through was worth it..while chopping off the tie wraps along the rig floor,Pak Raymond told me a touching statement which really melted my heart..he said,"If I’m your mother seeing you working this hard, my heart will feel painful"..I was surprised when he said that..It was jst out of a sudden..haha..mayb he need to take a five..Then I asked what if he was my father, he said,"I will be proud of you"..I really thanked him for saying that..really killed my tiredness and pain away immediately..at least there are people who notice my efforts..I was really happy and touched…you will feel great and satisfy when people appreciate your efforts and work..sometimes, all i need was a good tap on my shoulder, a firm handshake and told me excellent work, well done..these would really make my day..and a firm and warm hug from the love ones are my greatest motivation..

Once back to onshore, I spent one ‘interesting’ night in Miri..den another night in KK..when I was in KK, went to 2 clubs..Cocoon and Shenigan’s..I fell in love with one of the songs which a band played in Cocoon..It’s called Illegal by Shakira..featuring Santana..I fell for the lyrics immediately..and also fell for the way the female singer sang it..full of passion..and all the ladies in the club cheered for her when she sang that song…Here it goes..

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you’ve done it?
So deliberate, so determined

And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on

So tell me now, tell me now
Why you’re so far away
When I’m still so close

You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I’m wondering for days and hours
It’s here, it isn’t here where you belong

Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along

But you don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you’re still alive, baby
You don’t even know the meaning of the words “I’m sorry”
I’m starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman’s heart

The song does not resemble anything regarding my personal life..so,don’t think anything ‘doink’..jst it’s a nice song..feeling it’s nice if I can share with those who might fall for it too like me..Grab a phrase from a fren’s blog without his and her permission..Dont care..hehe.."Don’t touch a girl if you don’t mean to catch her when she falls"..sounds compatible to "Illegal" right?hehe..Cheers..

Day 6..on Ensco57 with my crazy cell manager Mak Agatha, Pak Raymond and Pak Gan (the lovable one by the men on the rig)..hehe

Being first time to the rig which I have been anticipating since I join Schlumberger was kinda thrilling..for those engineers who have been to the offshore often and in long period, they might think it sounds boring. However to me, it’s a good experience..At least I know whether this field will suit me or not in the future. Will I be able to endure it? Who knows? But so far so good..except something happened which only MAk and Pak know it..huhuhuhu..

It was my first time too on the helicopter..hehe..know what? I slept along the way..The check-in was at 6.15am..and the journey from Miri base to Ensco57 took 1 hour and 10min..The life jacket with EBS was very heavy.I could not wait to take it off once I was on the rig…

The best part was I finally fixed the VSAT (satellite dish to get network) for the crews..hehe..at least the things I ‘ve learnt from Atong were not wasted..hait hait..Here are some pics that  we took on the rig. .

Sun set view from Heli-Deck